Light at the end of tunnel

As the saying goes, there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. Indeed, the light came, but i am not sure whether it is good or bad. At end of the day, i am still unsure of what i need or want. Everything seems to be coming at the same time, and any decision, would be pivotal to my career or future.

I guess, it is normal for anyone to hate making decisions especially it has domino effect for the upcoming years.

Sick and tired for being sick and tired

Tiredness is the keyword to what i am experiencing. Or simply, you can say 'jaded' or 'numb-ness', i am sick and tired of changing my role. I not sure about you, how many people will enjoy changing your role every now and then? Especially, at least 3 major changes in one year? I doubt it.

Everytime, i was used as the 'finger' to cover the 'hole' that is leaking water in the company. I am not sure whether it was a compliment (for being all-rounder) or, it is an insult. I have pondered over the past few days, or in fact the past few weeks thinking what i need to do, or rather, what I want to do.

What i need now is really stablity, higher paid, a fresh start. I do not know what the future lies, but i really need to set a goal for myself for the next 5 years.

What i want to be?
What i want to achieve?
How much i need to earn?
What are the milestones that i want to accomplish?

With the current situation, it will not be feasible to talk about the above questions. I want to change, but how? It seems like my confidence has hit the lowest point in my life.

Hangover of 2009's Bad luck

I hated to mention this, but 2009's bad luck on me is still in effect. I.e. Work, life, football etc...

I was never injury prone before my accident back in 2009's may. But everything changes since, i was forced to be out of soccer for 6 months( Longest period of non-footballing action since i started playing football). my secret dream about being the captain has been dashed.

Everything else changes as well, my career, my money(all spent in medical bills and new bike), and almost everything else.

There is always a saying:

There is a light at the end of the tunnel.

I have used this phrase to encourage my friends in the past, and similarly, i have used this phrase to encourage myself, but indeed, i am still in the tunnel after so long. But i never regretted learning bike in the first place. Without it, i would have been charged in army for being late and many more.

There are also positives about it, i.e. i have seen the reality and know who care for u the most.

Starting from Herman, special thanks to him throughout the period, he came down from work to send me to polyclinic many times, sent be back to office to play dota, sent me to tan tock seng hospital, sent me to Lawyer firm, I will never forget his kindness. He was one of my few friends who visited me in hospital. He wlll always be my brother. (^^)==b

Secondly, i would like to thank my Mum for her unconditional love and care during this period of time.

Lastly, Roselinn played a vital role for me during that period of time as well. She showed 110% to me despite her curfew and restrictions. Kudos to her, she has make my time easier, and also, she had underwent awful time trying to bring me to the brighter side.

Beside the thanks giving, I really hope that 2010 would be a perfect year. Most imptly, i really need to boost to my stamina and to be back on track again.

Jack Neo's Scandal

What is your thoughts on this?

Should Jack stop his wonderful works in terms of producing movies?

The above are the questions you may probably ask. How about ah nan's comment? (below, translated from mandarin, chinese)

It is normal for men to play woman
by Ah Nan

I wonder when this will end, if Jack is not a celebrity, will this incident be made public? I doubt so, this whole incident put alot of pressure and stress on the old couple. It's not surprising for a director to have 'alot of girls throwing themselves' at, just look at Wan Jing from HK, i believe he has countless girls.

Just give them a break, pls, media is taking this chance to boost their sales of their papers. This is their family matters, let them decide and settle themselves. As quoted from Pastor Tan(From CHC), just leave them alone so that they can rebuild their marriage. Every men will fall, what they need is a chance to redeem themselves.

In regards to whether Jack should disband J-Team, i am afraid not. Like it or not, he is the most talented local movie director, he should use his future movies as part of the redemption for himself, and do Singapore and his family proud once more. That should be the most positive thing to do.

Be it a big mistake or a small mistake, they deserve a chance for self-redemption. Give him, and his family a chance.


S'pore film-maker Jack Neo's press conference on Yahoo! SEA @ Yahoo! Video

My Roselinn's new symbolic toy

My Roselinn's new symbolic toy

RED HAT Test Tomorrow!

Tomorrow is my red hat essential test. OMG. Last minute study again!

Dedicated to me by my Roselinn

Good news and bad news for children!

When a child is young, they are Ke ai, when they get older, they are KE WU!

Anyway,  just let me start with the good news first, my roselinn's cousin's wife(aka Ah Fang) just gave birth to a baby boy. I wonder when is my sister in law giving birth. =(


Anyway, let me attach 1 of the baby's photo:

Congrats!

Why i included bad news? It's simple, just now when i was eating at a coffee shop near my house, i saw one typical public-enemy-faced child playing DS, I guess he is only about 10 year old, guess what?

I heard him scolding his mom "KNN CCB" in hokkien, i guess you all know what's it. That's the kind of child we see these days. I also heard that they do have sex at only 12 years old. Amazing. I cant imagine a parent who is only 10 years older.

Boredom in school

Right now i am in the premise of Ngee Ann Poly waiting for my class to commence here. Now the time is only 3.50pm and my class actually starts at 7pm. Well, i am so darn tired after the long meeting. Luckily for me, there are power points all over NP which allow me to utilise my laptop without the fear of power low.

Well, today's meeting goes kinda smoothly except for more requirements and changes required. Nevertheless, it seems like my hard work for the past few days paid off, as it is close to what the user requires.

At the same time, I missed my silly Roselinn~ Yesterday she showed me emoticon which is darn funny! Because that emoticon really resembles her! Muahahahaahaa

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1aPNcUJuiLY

Multi-Threading programming(Concurrent System)

Maybe some do not know that our system(PC) is cater to run multi-Threading a.k.a. multi-Tasking programs using the processor.

In this semester, I chose concurrent system as my university core as I have always wanted to know how/why/what about multi-threading programming. But the bad things do happen, i missed the first 2 important lessons due to my in-camp training. After i attended my first class after missing the first 2, I totally do not know what i have learnt.

It's not easy, straight forward traditional  programming like vb.net(Sequential). It's object-oriented - Java, multithreading, 

So far, i am done with my TMA question 1 and 2, and realize how important is multithreading system/programmng protocol is to this world. There are so many business/schools/games require that!

Anyway, i wont go into further details with concurrent system. Just do a google for 'concurrent system' and it will do you all good.

Below are 2 programs which i have created using simple blueJ(java sdk) for my TMA:

Coin change simple system(Unit in cents)

Voting System(Threaded)

Programming is difficult.

How many of you think programming is easy? Lift up your hand now!

None!

 Why? Because at times, it's not something where you can use your logic to think. It's beyond logic at times.

It's more difficult if you are doing programming in Java and VB.net at the same time. For a simple sentence, i may sometimes confuse with the syntax. (as shown below)

Vb.net (Right syntax)
Dim strDynamic as new String

Java
String strDynamic; // with the colon

I am expected to work late, bt at times, people just look at the interface, they do not know how much to be done at backend. I wont mention who, but you know who. It's a lot of debugging.

What makes it more difficult is not only the requirement to program within a short time-span, it is also the fact that taking over someone' else work makes it even harder!

I do not know how long can I can continue with this life, but it's really very exhausting.

It is hard to do studying and work at the same time, although it's rewarding at the end of the day. Certainly, I do not know what to expect next.....

With this, i better get back to work! Seeya!